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SO, the new website is launched and the new EP is officially released! How exciting! I am really excited about this album for many reasons and one major one is how close to my heart it is... I mean, all of my music stems from my experiences so it is all pretty personal. But I felt like I NEEDED to make this album. I can tend to be a little neurotic and obsessive about things sometimes (surprised?) and the only way I know to let go of something is to totally indulge my obsession with it until I am sick of thinking about it. That usually works. But for some reason I have been obsessed with my family dying. And I couldnt bear to indulge in those thoughts because it would literally bring me to tears just thinking about it. Now, Ive lost my share of family members and I have dealt with that throughout the years, so I dont know why this became a central focus of fear for me. I am sure it leads back to fear of death myself but I dont experience that feeling so that is hard for me to grasp. Its always my immediate family- my parents, my brothers, my husband..... I mean, I dont know how people move past a loss like that. And the worst part is, I know I will have to deal with it one day (well, hopefully not my brothers) and so to waste so much energy on it NOW is absurd. I realize all of this. This has been going on for probably 2 or 3 years now. Insane. Then, last year, I lost my cousin and it really. tripped. me. out. I mean, he was the first one born of our generation in my family and the first one to go. Its not right, its just hard to even wrap my head around, still. And we werent as close as I am with some of my other cousins, but thats my flesh and blood. Someone I knew I could depend on. Someone who was always...there. And now hes not. And I just have a hard time even understanding that. And I knew I couldnt live in this neurotic, morbid, anxious state anymore and I figured if I can make it a project, to work through these feelings, then maybe I can let go of them..... and so "Give Up The Ghost" was born. And so all 5 songs are about death in some way and about me coming to terms with it. And so it is very real, very raw, and still very relevant to me. I think that comes through in the songs.
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How sad, not three people read this thing? ! I know everyone loves free stuff so my only conclusion is that either there are not three people reading this or the only three people that do already have a copy of the EP for free (hi, mom). Well, hopefully that will change when the blog becomes more accessible from the new website design..... ANYHOW, do you guys ever check out ted.com ? It is full of really interesting, concise speeches, performances, lectures..... I like to kill time on this site.
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"You can tell a lot about a culture by the sort of person it ostracizes. "
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this photo is the post-photo shoot self portrait. Oh, the glamour!
Well, I have some exciting news and whoever actually reads this blog gets the insider scoop!
I HAVE A NEW ALBUM!!!! Yep, you heard it here first! It will be available next week on the website, and it is already available on iTunes! I am sure I will be writing about it a lot in the upcoming weeks, I have kept it under wraps mainly because "Sparkle Plenty" was such a painfully long wait, I didnt want ANY anticipation out there, just BAM! A surprise! I AM capable of creating something in a reasonable timeframe! Anyhow, I am really excited about it, I think it is great and I want to give you a sneak peek at some of the photos from my "Give Up The Ghost" photo shoot....
it was 19 degrees out!
These were taken by Roman Meisenberg, an up-and-coming local photographer!
Stay tuned for changes to the site and more exciting news!
AND just because I am feeling giddy, the first 3 people to respond to this post will get a FREE copy of the new album....assuming there are 3 people that read this thing! I'll even autograph 'em for ya!
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